one day when you are older, you might come across a name on the internet. The name of a mother who tried to kill her daughter- an Autistic girl like you.
You might see lots of parents saying they are just like her, that mother.
You might see them saying things like - they can understand why she tried to kill her daughter because she is Autistic and so hard to live with.
You might see them saying things like - any parent of an Autistic child could snap and hurt their child. But I want you to know something.
They are wrong.
You might be like Issy Stapelton. But I am not like her mother.
I will never be like her. I promise you this.
I wanted you before you were born, after you were born, and when you were diagnosed.
I still want you when you have tough days, when I am tired, when I am frustrated and when I would rather please myself.
I loved you before you were born, after you were born, and when you were diagnosed.
I still love you when you have tough days, when I am tired, when I am frustrated and when I would rather please myself.
I will never use your pain to justify my feelings.
I will never expose you to others in your vulnerable moments.
I will never blame you for my problems.
I will never try to hurt you. Ever.
You are my precious child. I will love you. I will help you. I will protect you. Always.
I hope when you are older, and you hear about her, you will also find that Issy knows there are those of us who think she is valuable.
I hope you know that there are plenty of people who think you are valuable.
I hope you know there is justice for Issy, and for all Autistic people, and that you are loved and appreciated, just as you are.